Serious disclosure and reflection of my thought and action as a Hololive fan regarding Holostar/Holostar fan up until this point
Hololive, only grow stronger! With that in mind I will be frank with my behaviors change begin since Tempus Vanguard debut up until recently with my thought process/justification later. Hope it resonate with some of you and help the community get better, keeping out any anti that try to exploit the difference in value in some of us.
Negative behaviors: 1. I actively downvote any post with Holostar I come across. Especially one with Hololive member and Holostar member together.
Actively engage in multiple arguments with other user regarding any topic that touch on parasocial and whenever things regarding Hololive/Holostar interaction involved.
Going as far as to directly go to other sub such as r/Holostar and r/Okbh to shunt said users about their posts/comments. Building up quite a reputation as a parasocial/unicorn who would scream at the thought of their oshi interacting with star (not the case btw, I will touch on this later)
During Vanguard debut, posting about how management were experimenting with EN and chasing the success of a certain rival company on male vtubing.
Even up until recently these kind of behavior of me persisted.
Reflection/thinking back on why I did all these things:
I am a Hololive fan first and foremost, I started to fall into the hole since the Azurlane/Hololive colab got me curious, then boom, here I am.
Am I parasocial? Yes, if not then I would go about my day without thinking to type all this out. But I consider myself a healthy one with normal relationship and social life. My parasociality extend to even the fanbase because we have been through a lot, if you know you know, you mf are the most resilient fanbase I have ever been in and it make me very proud myself.
Then Myth debut, Covid happened, I started following them since debut, watching their journey the first year have been an emotional roller coaster for me and I loved every second of it.
What changed me:
I honestly don't know when it started, but specificly Omega debut made me feel unease. Not that I hate the character, but the fact that they represent the management, and that they stand over the talents and considered themself all powerful, I seriously didn't like that because I went against everything Hololive have stood for until that point. Talent - First.
When Tempus debuted, I enjoyed the move as a sign that Cover and Yagoo is willing to branch out to new audiences, I was magging along, I recommended them to my female friends. But then the friction some "fan" had with male/female colab arised, I didn't care because I didn't watch Kronii at the time, or now for me to care. I just thought it was stupid and the "unicorn" were just anti in disguise and it will blow over just like everytime, I simply ignored the bickering. I thought it would not bother me or change the way I engage with the fanbase, but it didn't go away or was I sane enough to avoid it, I will elaborate soon.
The point is I was partial to this topic until the day that the sub was locked, when Vanguard debuted. I felt something welled up, and I needed to rant, and I did, I will detail here, right or wrong is up to you to decide, I simply retell the story. I posted on this sub about how Cover is prioritizing HolostarEN too much, without at least trying to fully support Hololive Myth and Council, how by venturing out too far and spread management too thin you will end up hurting the girls and their projects.
From that day I was branded as an unicorn/parasocial/incel.
I snapped
Since then I acted exactly as you would expect an "unicorn" with my negative behaviour I listed up in the top of this post. I started to resent the part of the fanbase that constantly bring this topic up, starting fights with them, unprompted. I felt anger any time the word "unicorn", "parasocial", or "incel" popped up in the sub. I acted exactly as the version of "unicorn" they have built up and hence the vicious cycles of negative reinforcement from both sides.
Nobody win
That side pushed harder, going to extreme to provoke the "unicorn" with post resenting the downvote of star posts, posts with Hololive/holostar members then proceed to denounce parasociality unprompted, citing the downvote percentage.
I responded, saying why care, why trying to fight an invisible enemy, why bringing negativity into the community, stop doing these kind of stuff.
Their enemy was not invisible anymore, I became their enemy, I am the bad parasocial fan, whoever stop them from their endeavors became the unicorn/incel in their eyes. I became the target that they were looking for all this time, thus the never ending cycle began. I became the very thing I swore to destroy, I became THE negativity in the community.