>>103858937Nah she already had a guy in mind she wanted to marry .She had severe oneitis and a completely one-sided love for this childhood friend growing up who was also her first love and her love continued for 7 years all the way from childhood. Bae used to buy a lot of gifts for this dude with her personal money on birthdays and Christmas but he was in love with another girl and had zero interest in her romantically.
She talked about this story on stream as Bae when she was pressed by chatters but she removed a lot of details
https://youtu.be/4lgeURx0IFM?t=4952Framed it as an elementary childhood crush for obvious reasons. Some of the details don't match up either because what kind of elementary schooler gives out sophisticated artbooks as gifts? She later said in another stream
>"I already exposed myself too much already that one time"She wrote an entire script about about this dude on her roommate
https://files.catbox.moe/emlt1e.mp4Here's the translation
https://rentry.co/yrif2n7wi don't like you.
For a while now, I've hated you.
Why did I have to fall for a person like you?
At first, I thought it couldn't be helped.
Even if you didn't reciprocate my feelings..
I thought it was enough just to be by your side.
I was such an idiot.
Why didn't I distance myself sooner?
Because of you...
I've become such an embarrassing mess.
Even now, I panic when I talk to you..
..and so can't talk properly.
What if I say something wrong?
How am I perceived by you?
I completely lose myself.
Back then, I did everything I could.
I worried about you.. and cared for you.
I won't let it be forgotten.
Every year, birthdays and Christmas were a given..
Without a thought, I did everything I could for you.
While on the contrary, I didn't expect anything from you..
After all, it was stuff I willingly did right?
It was stuff that had nothing to do with you...right?
I really did try my best..
I wrote a letter, confessing my feelings...
I wrote 「Would it be alright to like you?」...right?
I couldn't write 「Please go out with me」..could I?
I was scared...
If I lost our friendship, I wouldn't know what to do..
Times like that...
Clearly turn me down!
Because you didn't...
..I struggled with my one-sided love for another 2 years..
..It was painful.. but I couldn't let you go..
I swear..what a complete waste of time.
Do not misunderstand.
I do not like you.
In fact, I regret it.
Falling for you is the worst thing to ever happen to me.
..pathetic.
After another 3 years..
..you were still lingering in my mind.
In front of you..
..all my self worth comes crumbling down.
I get reminded how I'm just never good enough for you.
I loved you so much that I hated it.
Oh how I resent you.
It's been 7 years since I first fell for you..
..and yet I still resent you.
Even if we continue being friends..
..I'll still resent you.
Even when I'm with someone else..
..I'll still resent you.
I will forever resent you...
..and I think I'm okay with that.
And so, Mr. First Love...
Let's end this..
After all..
I hate you.
TLDR: Imagine Sally 2.0 but if she was a guy and Bae was an absolute simp for him but he was in love with another girl and it was a completely one-sided love from Bae's end where she kept coping it would bloom into something more if she stayed by his side
