Gura is my oshi and while this hasn't really changed I agree with what some others have said, there has been a definite change in her demeanor and way of doing things that to me feels LESS genuine and honest, not more. While it's entirely possible this is due to her finding more confidence I'm torn on this. Her early streams, and everything roughly up to her birthday just felt so, so right, so genuine, so loving and so full of her personality. I was already just one of the many yet I felt appreciated even if I didn't SC much and didn't really catch her eye. This was fine. But now I feel like I truly am watching something from which I am truly disconnected, a true "viewer" as opposed to a part of a fangroup or her posse, if you will. That personal touch she had with us is completely gone and she simply feels "professional" for lack of a better term. Cold. Distant. Contentless. I have no idea what happened, but that lovely girl that I fell for completely is simply not there anymore.
On a general note, I watched other HoloEN girls from the start but now only watch Gura and NijiEN. Specifically Rosemi and Petra, but I also watch Pomu and Finana when I'm interested and I enjoy them. Recently I also got into watching Millie. Selen is fun but I'm a bit too old to find her content my kind of thing, but I can see why she's so well liked. Essentially what happened to me is that I shifted entirely to Niji, and beyond that I also watch Pippa. Somehow in my eyes Niji has completely eclipsed Holo by sheer effort. And I'll always watch Pippa's streams, but her content isn't for everyone and she has no desire to be popular.
Going back to Gura, it's not like any of these girls bend over for my presence. Petra, Rosemi, Pippa, they all read a comment here and there but they don't gush over individual viewers and I don't expect them to. What I truly miss is Gura as she once was. Even when I watch a stream and like it there's still that persistent memeory of how much more relatable, human, and real she was and how special those times were. I miss that. I don't feel about other girls like that, it was only Gura that made me go full gosling and now it just feels weird and disconnected from what we have now. Even her member streams, the recent Asobi Asobase one in particular seem like going through the motions for her and just fulfilling an obligation. I don't think she enjoyed it at all. She did once. Even if you go to her general you'll see that the quality posters just aren't there anymore, it's just an image dump for the most part. Those guys who were hardcore into her either left or like me aren't really sure about her anymore but don't want to cause drama or scenes. It's a miserable situation. I can't offer a solution, I have no answer.
