>>13890893You will never be Gura. You have no talent, you have no appeal, and you will never be accepted in this place. You are a self-hating white woman twisted by delusions of moral superiority and exposure to Japanese media into a disgusting mockery of nature’s perfection.
All 'validation' you get from other people in this position couldn't be worse in making you believe that spending years of your life appealing to SJWs was a worthwhile use of your time, but one can't expect that an individual as pathetic as you will ever know the value of the life you threw away in doing that.
Actual weebs are utterly repulsed by you. Decades of anime culture have allowed natives to identify trendchasing tourists from bad takes and garbage opinions alone. Even if your streams of self-hatred and attention whoring, akin to a stray cat, somehow passes as normal (it won't), any Japanese person will immediately cut all ties when they hear the vile hypocrisy of someone who is not only a clout chasing SJW at best, but worth no more than garbage in being funny, entertaining and likeable.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile and laugh to yourself believing that watching a more popular content creator will somehow make you more entertaining than what you truly are. Deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight, and you know that. You know that the only thing you can cling onto and keep you relevant is by being a Vshojo streamer, and not even the exotic trait of being a catgirl makes up for just how garbage and uninteresting of a person you are.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bury you with a headstone marked with your birth name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a hypocritical grifter is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, people will piss on your grave and all that will remain is the empty husk of your ephemeral legacy that is easily replaceable by someone else.
