【English】
Hello everyone. It's been a while.
Thank you very much for all of your encouragement and warm messages.
And so, I'd like to apologize for all of the trouble and worries I have caused you.
Please allow me to give a formal apology for receiving funds from you all without providing any content in return.
I am truly sorry.
I understood that it would be better to make this sort of announcement sooner than later, but, as time passed, I became afraid that I'd missed the right timing.
I'm so sorry for allowing myself to remain silent for so long.
【Regarding My Current Situation】
First of all, as I've mentioned in previous Fanbox articles, streams, and fan server posts, I have bipolar disorder.
This is not something that I developed recently, but something I've had since around middle school.
Unable to do anything, I not only made my fans wait but also received their money without giving anything in return. I can't manage to progress on my projects as a creator. These facts brought about a self-hatred that caused my depression to spike and send me into a spiral. Even now I'm struggling with it.
Wanting to overcome the part of me that couldn't accomplish anything, I made statements on my main account saying things like, "I'll work hard!" or "I'll be streaming at X time!" in order to use the pressure from those statements. And because, despite this, I failed to do anything, those statements became lies.
As a result of my continuing to reject and hate myself for being unable to accomplish anything, my depression became more severe.
At the current time, I am not in a mental state capable of providing content.
I am purely at fault for this, so I will earnestly take any criticism or harsh comments.
From now on, I will make clear declarations of when am I unable to do something.
I vow that I never drag others into my own attempts to pressure myself again.
【Regarding the Future】
Please allow me to officially declare a temporary suspension of all streams, both Fanbox and public.
For the duration of this suspension, I will be removing the Fanbox URL from all of my official social media accounts and log out of my twitter and Fanbox account.
(I will not be able to reply on twitter. I ask for your patience.)
Following this announcement, I will also be logging out of my Fanbox exclusive twitter account to prevent exposing myself to things that I cannot handle in my current state of mind. I am sorry.
Once I feel I am at a point where I can resume activities, I will post a public statement announcing my return.
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Q. How long will my hiatus last?
I currently have no estimate to provide on how long until my condition improves.
Those who know about bipolar disorder may understand, but, days where you feel fantastic and days where you don't want to do anything can come and go at random.
As such, providing a specific sort of timeframe for my return is very difficult. I hope for your understanding.
I myself still have many things I want to do and things that I've left unfinished, so I will definitely not let this be the end.
I will return not only to attain my own dreams, but also to deliver my great thanks, lively songs, and lively voice to those who have been my fans and supporters until now, so, if you'll be willing to wait for my return, it would make me very happy.
【Delta's Casual Stream Account】
I've set up an account for days where I'm feeling good and want to casually stream a little bit.
Because I will suspend official public and Fanbox-limited streaming, I'll be using this channel for any streams I do, so please subscribe if you're interested.
https://youtube.com/channel/UCALBcDARZuABe3Gb4P1nPpA【Will you participate in the fan servers?】
While I will suspend official public and Fanbox-limited streaming, I will occasionally visit and hang out in my fan servers.
There are currently two central fan servers: DFS on Discord, and a fan group on QQ for Chinese fans.
