>>17437378it's not exactly subtle, she says what she means straight up without even couching it in figurative language
- even though she's successful, she still feels depressed and unable to control herself
- she feels like she's always putting on an act and doesn't relate to the facade she's putting up, and that this is an alienating experience
- even though she's found success, she doesn't feel fulfilled and finds that even though she got what she originally wanted she's just found new things to want and feels unfulfilled by not having
- she feels like the biggest reason she's seen success is luck, and that means she feels like a hypocrite for just telling people to work hard and they'll make it when she truly thinks that they won't make it
those are the obvious ones anyway
