I hope you read this, because I'm fucking mad.
Your streams the last few weeks have been god-awful. Every stream is invaded by the most attention-starved, gossip-hungry, shitty dregs of soda's fanbase, begging for a little bit more detail on your relationship. He’s constantly advertising it on his stream. You gave him the streamer role in the server so everyone can see you together on the sidebar and know exactly what you’re doing when you go mobile. You keep doing this cutesy beat around the bush thing, bring up the “that soda can guy”. But it’s not cute, it’s fucking annoying.
I’m not a fan of soda. He’s a boring loser. A shit-tier streamer who got successful during a time when Twitch was a barren wasteland, and now coasts along using his friends he made along the way as content. I couldn’t give a shit about him.
I also couldn’t give a shit about who you’re fucking. I don’t really want to hear it whether it’s soda or someone else.
But the two of you advertise it so blatantly and constantly, that I couldn’t help but be reminded of it every time I tune in. I don’t want to hear it. I don’t care. I’m not some LSF retard. I don’t want to gossip about strimmer X and strimmer y. You’re professional online clowns, not the hot highschool couple.
I hoped it would calm down, but today you proved that it isntgoing to.
You both have proven yourselves completely incapable of keeping your relationship private and off stream. But today, in top of that, you now have the gall to claim that streamers who do manage to keep it private should be more honest because you’re upset that you’re getting shit? How did you come up with such a bone headed opinion? They are able to manage their public and private lives effectively and don’t have problems with their fanbase, but you think they need to change their behaviour? They’re the ones doing it wrong because people are still happy with their content? After ruining your stream with this inane teenage “will-they, won’t-they” bullshit, how the fuck do you come up with this?
If Silver has a boyfriend, I don’t care because her streams are still comfy.
If nyann has a boyfriend, I don’t care because her streams get better by the day.
If mousey has a boyfriend, even if it’s Connor, I don’t care, because I can still sit and watch a mouse stream without Connor coming up every five seconds, and her moderators at least make an effort to oust the weirdos.
Nobody is mad at you for having a boyfriend. Get over yourself. People are mad because they don’t care that you have a boyfriend. They’re mad because the content they subscribed to is gone and replaced by this bullshit that they don’t care about. They’re mad because you and your community have been unrecognisable the last few weeks, and it’s all because your manchild crush started paying attention to you, and he’s somehow even less capable of being a responsible adult than you.
I’m embarrassed to say I now, but I was worried about you. I thought soda was taking advantage of you pushing his audience to gossip more to farm interest and get attention because you were hot shit for a minute, and that was wrecking the vibes in your stream. I thought you had a fangirl crush and were too enamoured to see how fucked his attitude has been. For a little bit the word grooming popped into my head, because you seemed more and more isolated and willing to make changes in such a stupidly short period of time.
Now I think that if you think other streamers relationships should be this way, then you’re too stupid to be worth worrying about.
You seriously need to self-reflect, and realize how completely fucked your relationship already is. You can’t have this attitude that it’s perfect and everyone else should do it the way you’re doing it, when clearly it’s fucking with you, and it’s fucking with your fans. The least you could do now is try to reign in your chat and get streams back on track. Remove soda from that part of the equation and keep things more private. He doesn’t need to be in your discord, he doesn’t need you on his desktop background. At the very least enforce the one actual chat rule you have, don’t talk about other streamers. That way when shit hits the fan you might have some fans left.
I just want to get it through to you that what’s happening isn’t normal or healthy, neither professionally or romantically. I’ve had a lot of emotional investment in this stream. You and the chat have helped through some rough times, and I want it to return to what it was.
For now though, I’m done. 15 month sub, viewer for even longer, and I’m gone, because of your direct actions. I’m not some parasocial. I’m not mad that you’re not single. I just don’t recognise this any more, and I’m not interested in what it’s become. It’s not me, it’s you.
