>>18111175if you still care about her doing bad, it means you still want her to do well
so overall the core of your feelings is positive
just focus on that and believe she's doing her best
I doubt any of the Holos fakes her fondness for her fans, so despite what people might be saying about Rushia I doubt she aimed to deceive or use anyone
it comes down to wanting to be loved and supported and wanting to love and support in the end
and if your dependence is hurting you then it's fine to pull back a bit and use the pain as motivation to try to spread the love a little
