I knew someday it would come to an end. All Hololive fans do. We try to push that thought to the back of our minds and just enjoy the moments we share with our Oshi but we still know it in our hearts. I was okay with that. It had happened before with Coco and while it was sad we at lest got to spend the last moments together saying our goodbyes.
Now I have to somehow do the same without saying goodbye to someone who I truly did love and I don't care what anyone says, I know she loved me back. Maybe not in the way I did for her but she did love us all. I feel so dead inside and I want to just end it but I won't because I know that she wouldn't want that. So even though I am hurting and angry I will keep moving and hopefully someday the pain will hurt less.
They can delete her channel but they will never remove the memories and love we shared.
To all the haters who will shit on me. Go ahead, there is nothing you can do because I am already and always will be A Fandead