>>22181827>Human interaction is inherently performarive.I get that part. The problem is not restraining what I want to say, but how I want to act. Same example as you gave, most people have a different way of acting when they're around their parents, friends, teachers, colleagues, strangers and so on. Not only the speech, but even gestures, expressions, etc. Behaving differently with each group doesn't mean being fake, it's just choosing what part of your personality you want to show.
>is the repression that this streamer performance requieres of you too much?Not at all, I'm not unhappy with it. I enjoy streaming. It's just that a lot of times (like right now) I wonder if I would be in a better place if I didn't follow the normie route.
>Even if your audience were big (it sounds like it's not) Not big, 20-30 ccv on average. Mostly other chuubas and regulars.
> You are choosing to be an anime character streaming shit. Live your best life. Although I started streaming regularly in October, I still consider my current streams to be reps. Rebranding and all that would have a cost that I can't afford right now. I don't want to abandon my current viewers and all I've managed to achieve, but if I ever reincarnate I don't want to be associated with a previous persona, so telling them to watch me "there" would feel awkward and completely break the purpose. I also thought about being two different chuubas with separate channels, but I can hardly manage one right now, and viewers would inevitably crossover at some point.
