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If I didn't see my Parasocial interactions with Jerma985, I probably would of never noticed it... He was my "friend" in my head. I knew he didn't know my name or anything like that, but I was emotionally relying on this person, his jokes, his community... I was way way way too invested.
When he announced he got a girlfriend, I got seriously sad, and I was extremely confused. I really had emotions for this person, like they were close to me. "He's going to stream less now and spend time with her" and other stupid thoughts flooded my brain for days and I realized, this was the unhealthy shit you'd say about a REAL Friend, not some guy on the internet.
Then I realized... Oh shit, I was doing this exact some thing with Kiara, I assumed she was gay so any romance stuff was a non issue, but she was my closest "friend". It was a sad wake up call, I had given her so much money, bought all the merch, and was just... in love with her but as a person.
No romance was ever involved, but deep one sided emotional attachment
