>>23483895This is my goodbye to the thread
I avoid the threads when it's ffx time so I just got caught up. Things just havent been the same since November/December, the last couple of months things have gotten bad, due to many different things outside of her control ill be told, but the result is the same: I dislike the current clone. the aethel stuff is the last straw for me, but on top of that her content, personality, voice, everything is different, shes not the vtuber whos content i fell in love with back before pink cat was even a thing. yeah people change, but that doesn't mean i have to like it, ill spare the rants about the details though, dont want to drag this on too much and thats not he point.
If I was her friend im sure i would be happy for her, but i dont have that kind of relationship with her, and she made it clear multiple times we arnt friends, i cant be happy for her when it comes at the cost of my own happiness due to content changes, that would be such a imbalanced relationship, im tempted though.
Throw the parasocial insult towards me or whatever, youre right, that is a big part of it, im past the point of caring though. but all i can say is thjat lately streams have not been fun for whatever reason, even when i can catch one and she does something thats good content every time she does a bit thats obvously something she heard from aethel or somehow related to him, or says something that kind of related to him it pulls me out and i feel my heart freeze, looking over at chat just waiting for people to mention him. watching streams have been more stressfully that real life for me lately because im just waiting for it to turn onto something about him like it has in the past. and now were at the point where everything, even the jokes she tells just sounds like its from him, and its not going to get better based on the last ffx stream.
If she comes to the thread again, sorry for the posts that made you feel bad, maybe including this one. during the discord rant a lot of the topics were from things I said, it was never said out of malice, I like talking with others about what parts of a stream i liked and what part i disliked. im not going to go on rants about how i disliked this and liked that when i dont even like the stream/streamer overall, the opposite of like is apathy after all. I didn't think you'd read it/get oneguyd by it. but at least know that this is the last one. no more rants about react content or getting distracted when playing chrono trigger, or the aethel collabs being boring. i would have loved to see the end of chrono trigger though, but i dont think i can even play the game now without being reminded of her
Im hoping vei will stream and take my mind off of it, ironic that im running to the one with an open bf to hide from this because vei always had the fun girl to fuck around with vibe and not the same vibe as nyan. I might relapse and come back now and then to lurk, or hell maybe everything will be fine in a month or two, until then, ill see you guys in /vsj/ maybe. i still like silver and watch some others occasionally. a lot of the image macros and memes, even a lot of the vocaroos going back to pmg days were from me so i hope overall my contribution to the threads were positive. see you on the other side.
