>>23725176This will sound like bullshit, but I replaced my weed and alcohol use with exercise and dieting. But objectively was addicted to it in sadly a similar way I have always been attracted to "Feeling Good". It wasn't the endorphins or runners high everyone talks about, it was the feeling of stepping on the scale and seeing the numbers go down.
I was obsessed with every pound, I did Keto, intermittent fasting, I joined a jogging group, and turned my life around... but in the evenings I was forcing myself to throw up when I ate too much... But I looked good, and I was addicted to it. I was working out every day until my muscles were jelly, I was jogging 50KM a week. I was looking good, I was feeling good, but I was still for all intents addicted to it.
I was losing 10 pounds a month at least, and as weird as this sounds, I would stand in front of the Mirror like Dennis from Always sunny and just look at my new body. I was obsessed, but felt attractive for the first time ever, it was strange, I had a new found confidence. By the end I went from 260 pounds down to 160. Went from a size 40 pant to size 32, it was amazing, as long as I didn't mention the daily purges. (fun fact, after a year of puking, you can puke on command, at least I can)
Sadly when Covid hit, I lost my job and things went pretty badly for me. I started smoking weed again daily and gained back 50 pounds since then. Ever since April I've been sober again and trying to get my shit together but the purging is back... I eat to much and feel guilty and run for the toilet... Man, it's rough. But I've lost 10 pounds... Here we go again
So, maybe take up self improvement
