>>24276254Takos I'm very depressed. I can't seem to convince myself to start doing my reps again.
I used to do so much, gym, read, progress my career, I was a meticulous person who always had to have a schedule, always had to be researching the best way to do things.I have documents written out on pretty much everything required to live a successful life, goals, methodologies, affirmations and motivations, there's a document on my computer that if I just asked "what does the doc say to do" in every situation I would have anything I want in life.
But if I'm being honest, I was only ever doing all that for one reason deep down, to try to be "good" enough to get laid.
Didn't work.
Eventually I just burned out and crashed, I still make a lot of money, but now I barely leave my house, don't take care of myself, weeks without showering, bare minimum efforts at work, and it's been like this for a year now.
I know it's better for me to just go back to the gym and start being a functioning human being again but I can't fucking do it, when I look back at all the shit I used to do, all the progress I've stopped it seems insurmountable to try to start over. Worse because of the fear that doing all that won't even make me happy because all that really matters is the validation of having a woman be interested in having sex with me and nine of that shit helped.
(I've actually had multiple girlfriends, I've actually been naked in bed with a woman on multiple occasions, but for some reason (I know the reasons) women just don't want to actually fuck me. They'll say they love me, but just arnt sexualy attracted to me)
Anyways I just needed to rant.
I know that all I need to Change my life around is some random stimulus that convinces me to put in effort again.
But it's been years now and Im starting to worry that my emotional state has decayed so much that the stimulus required to snap out of it is just practically infeasible
I need help man, I can't live like this