I had an oshi, but she graduated and turned out to be a two-faced bitch.
In 2020 I lost motivation to do anything. I was NEET without any plans to do anything about it, every job I had before was a dead end, I didn't see much point in finding another job just to find means sustenance, I hate my life anyway, dying from hunger is not much worse than slaving for next 40 years. But when I found my next oshi, I wanted to finally find a job for the sole reason to be able to support her. My own life isn't worth anything, but I it looked like I found someone who I could live for.
Yes, she graduated before I did that, and yes, she was also a two-faced bitch who broke my heart completely this time.
Vtubers are an opium of the people, they can make you happy for a few hours, but over time they will drag you down to the rock bottom. Without them, I would never realise how desperately lonely I am. Without them, I would be probably more focused on self-improvement, learning new things.
But instead I was concernfagging over some girls on the internet catching cold or not sleeping enough, or having depression, wile my own life is shit and there are several wars going on in the world, not to mention the freaking plague, so it's not like they having a hard time, relatively speaking.
