Its a funny thing. My oshi is Miko, and I didn't start out caring about whether she collabed with males or not, but if she did so tomorrow I think it would actually hurt. I couldn't place quite why, I don't love her romantically, more of a cute daughter experience really, but I think she'd lose something in my eyes if she did, some sense of separation from the world and all the bullshit in it. I started watching because I saw the fubuki memes got curious and checked out pekora then Miko later who were coincidentally live and fell hard for Miko as daughteru experience, maybe its the baby laugh and the chill visually pleasing crystal isles streams, catching Miko making her shrine in the cherry blossom trees. that got me. Maybe its the expectations built up after a few years that the experience will stay the same? Maybe I just dislike change? I honestly couldn't care less about EN male collabs except for Gura who strikes me as having some of that JP goodness in her, they can go nuts and I just wouldn't watch or put money to them, but if Miko did I honestly don't know if it would break this spell on me and put me back in the Anime and twitch male streamer camp, watching much less of Hololive if much at all, I never cared about vtubers or vtubing as a medium, it was really all about migo and her cgdct friends, so there's no chance I'd be moving elsewhere. I guess it would on some level make me feel like my efforts to catch her streams at ass hours while juggling my work schedule were pointless, like she wasn't putting effort into this, which I know she is to please her viewers, which I'm grateful for when the EN side its mostly treated as a job, you can tell they don't really enjoy what they're doing, they make up all sorts of excuses to not do it, it comes through in their streams. Funnily Gura, the prime lazy streamer, is the one who give's me the sense she really enjoys what she's doing. Maybe she's just a good actor, but It makes me happy to watch her, unlike the others, who seem to just treat it as an obligation. Its an interesting thing, these bindings we fall into.
Don't bother bringing up shit from a few years ago I couldn't care less she's had alot of change in between
