I'm sorry. I'm fucking sorry. I always shit on unicorns thinking I was above all this shit but I'm exactly the same as you. I couldn't even make it through the collab. Watching her laugh and have fun with another guy while I'm still just stuck behind a screen as faceless nobody #74738264... I had to turn my computer off and just go take a walk. I still feel physically ill hours later. I think I just need to take a break from this vtuber thing and maybe just the internet in general. Think things through.