>>32902961Unfortunately yes I hate it because I hate unicorns and everything they stand for. I always hated parasocial relationships the fact of being a complete schizo over a girl on the Internet, it's something totally unhealthy and horrendous and is something I despise because it means I'm almost on the same level as the creepy fucks that think an entertainer is their girlfriend.
I've never seen Kronii in a romantic way, but in the last few weeks that has changed because I've seen her more human side and seeing how grateful she was for all that, seeing how little she talked about her feelings, what she went through and how it affected her life, it affected me because I ended up relating more and more to her and I remembered how similar we were in certain things.
She was even happier than she looked and was excited and relaxed after all the trouble she'd been through. Then it happened, she just wanted to make new friends and talk to other people but got attacked by her unicorns for having a good time with Altare just because she laughed. After all the fuss, she was still friendly and democratic with her unicorns rather than rejecting them, listening to what they had to say. But then she had to talk about being against ships and about idol culture, making the situation that was being resolved even worse. This whole situation made her get into problems with the management that made her take this break. And seeing how the situation got worse for her affected me a lot because she was finally happy and then that happened and I can't stop thinking for even a day knowing the injustice she suffered and worried that she might go back to being depressed like before.
The worst part is that I can't do nothing and I always remember myself that'll never be with her and I'm just hurting myself, I know that falling in love is normal but not this way, this will only hurt me and even then my mind keep hammering these "feelings", again and again and again. I pray that's just a phase and it'll go away soon for my well-being because I don't want it to eat me up inside.
