>>33402306Well, you had an ex who was mentally ill, right? So you know what it's like. Terumi is a milder version, not by choice but due to the medium. She doesn't live in the same city as you, she's not going to ring your doorbell at 3AM asking you to comfort her because she had an episode. She would, but she can't.
What she can do is wake you up at 3AM with a notification that she's streaming, or if you're in her discord, ping everyone.
You also have an out with her. If you ever get bored or it's too much for you, you can always just unsub, leave, and that's it, there's really nothing she can do about it. However, she keeps an excel sheet of her regulars. She's mentioned feeling ill and miserable whenever someone leaves. So if you get in and then leave, you'd be hurting her, and it would get worse the longer you stay. So you can't actually leave because you know that if you did you'd actively be hurting her in one of the worst ways.
It really is up to you. Are you willing to put up with someone with BPD? Yes you will get as much love and affection as she can give, but you will also have to give back, and even though you can leave if it's too much, you can't really leave actually unless you have no conscience. And though she's not evil she is willing to guilt trip you, manipulate you and gaslight you into staying with her, because she's that desperate.
>I fully realize this virtual stuff is not realTo her it is. It's virtual because it can't be in person, otherwise it ranges from being similar to the same as having a girlfriend with BPD.
That's honestly why I'm on the fence myself. I know what it's like, and it's scary thinking about going at it again.
