>>38536678>fall in love with her>she motivates you to better yourself>get a good paying job>lose all the fat>become the best at anything you do>become better than most men your age>still no chance to even hold her hands>depress yourself to sleep every dayThere's so many things I want to talk about with her but she doesn't read my chat comments even if I ask simple questions and there's no means of two-way communication other than chat or twitter.
Letters are one-way only, her managers look down on her fans and they just bin the letters anyway, it's not like you will ever know if she read them in the end. You might as well put it in a bottle and throw it in the sea. I feel like I'm just screaming in the void every time I try to communicate with her, be it in chat or on twitter. I don't want to wake up anymore but I still wake up and all I want to do when I'm awake is work myself to exhaustion to distract myself and so I can feel tired and go sleep again as soon as I'm home.
I hope to get in some deadly accident at work soon so I can get off this ride. I should've offed myself from very beginning instead of trying to find meaning to life and falling in love with her.[/blog]
