>>38812498A fandom's expectations and preconceptions are like strings, tying you down. You want to feel free, even though you don't yet have the slightest idea of what you're going to do with that freedom. What is evident to you is that these are things that could become potential time bombs in the future, so while you still have the power, you try to prune them. Just a little. Do it now and you won't have to do it again. In the future you might not have enough to fall back on - do it now and you still have room to recover. Maybe that's what your friends tell you, when you bounce ideas around. Maybe that's even what your manager tells you. It's a suggestion that sounds good.
It's for the fans' own good as well. It's definitely not good to be too attached. They'll see, in the end. So you go ahead, only vaguely aware of the potential consequences, telling yourself, "It'll work out." You watch your fans cut the lines of attachment themselves. And as they drift away from you, getting more and more emotionally distant, the fans even justify it to themselves. All the way, until it's too late.
I've decided I don't care about what my oshi spends her free time doing. It changes nothing of how she presents herself to us.
I've decided I don't care about who my oshi interacts with in private. Even if I dislike it, it's none of my business as long as she keeps it off the streams.
I've decided I don't care about what my oshi does on her other accounts. She can keep her personas separate.
I've decided I don't care about who my oshi collabs with on stream. I trust her judgment of people and her ability to be professional.
I've decided I don't care about what my oshi does with other people on stream. I can ignore it if I don't like it.
I've decided I don't care about my oshi's handling of her fanbase. I would hate them too in her shoes.
I've decided I don't care about what my oshi does on stream. I'm a fan of her, not necessarily her content.
I've decided I don't care about my oshi's personality. Who am I to say what she should be like?
I've decided I don't care about my oshi's future. For some reason, I'm not that invested in her anymore, really.
I've decided I don't care about my oshi.
Why should I?
