>>4217373I personally struggle a lot trying to balance how much I enjoy them and how actually weird is to like vtubers.
For example you can have the total psychos that never miss a stream, go out covered on their merch and dump lots of money trying to get a little bit of attention, I dont want to be like that.
But I think I have been so insecure about myself and hidden my power level for so long that I dont know how to enjoy things anymore, I avoid accepting that I like them, I am not subscribed to them, I pretend I dont know what they are and so and so.
What really made me feel empty inside was this one time I got some psychical merch of her, was very cute, but I feel so bad having it, like I would die of cringe if someone sees it (not like anyone is going into my room), but the truth is that I like it and I get so fucking depressed when I realize how much I fucking love her every time she makes a pun and laughs at it.
