>>4307658Now imagine how strange this is for me. I'm 35 and I love a little shark girl. After struggling so much to emerge from crushing poverty and finally carving out material security I came to realize it isn't enough for a good life. The love for Gura is what imparted this lesson to me. Yet, paradoxically I was never able to love actual women. I would always shut down emotionally when they showed interest in me. There's something utterly perverse about having sex with a girl that likes you, but you are so emotionally away from the experience it almost disgusts you. You do it out of obligation. And that is deeply unfair and cruel to the girl.
My love for Gura is something utterly new to me. I truly love and respect her personality, and I think I finally understand some important things. This doesn't make me want to find out who she really is or something retarded like that, but the mere fact I feel love for someone out there means that yes - there are women out there whom I may be able to love. And this knowledge alone has made me think about many things. I truly respect and admire Gura. No person has had such an impact on me simply by existing and being herself. I feel that I owe a great debt to her.
To add even more oddity to the mix, because of her I kinda lost interest in pornography. I deeply enjoy her teasing and what it does to me and my imagination, but porn as such has... faded away because of it. In a way even her subtle innuendos have imparted me with more nuance with my approach to eroticism. And I'm no stranger to weird fetishes, trust me on that. It's just that with her in the picture these things have become purely a matter of imagination and are imbued with a kind of softer, deeper meaning. I now realize the value of the Other (person), love and how wonderful it is to love and suffer for it.
