>>7120that's exactly why i archive their streams
because one day in the future in a lonely day, i want to be able to dust off an old hard drive, and at least for a while be able to hear her laugh again, wonder were i lost her acrylic stand, check her roommate's twitter which has been inactive for years, and remember that while it's over the memories of it will never leave me, just like and old internet friend who's email i lost, and the vague memories of a schooltrip. Think of the fact that i got to be there for what might have been the happiest period of her life, think about how even for a split second while reading my name she knew i existed, how she pushed me to learn a language, to improve my drawing, to go out an most and important of all, to be happy
to wonder if she keeps up with her old friends, if she has fanart still saved on her phone for when nostalgia hits her, if she still sings like back in the day, and just for the that day allow myself to cry thinking about her very last goodbye
and maybe to wish that wherever she is, married to a man or a woman, maybe even single, that above all she is happy. and that someone be it to my children, partner, friends or even a stranger that i can make someone as happy as she made me back in the days, because that might have been a fake persona, on a badly rigged avatar, but she really did make me happy
