>>48485577Whenever I want to jerk off to my hag oshi, I have to imagine meeting her someplace like a park and really hitting it off.
I have to imagine the whirlwind romance that follows, awkwardly crossing the language barrier, struggling with Japanese textbooks but knowing it'll be worth it to propose to her. Picking out the perfect ring and the right location. Telling her that I'm not a rich man but I'd do anything to make her happy. Marrying her on a beautiful spring day and swearing to love her with all my heart until I die. I need to be able to see us picking out a house, realizing it's a little beyond my salary but working up the courage to demand that raise from my boss because I've been working my ass off and he knows I've earned it. I need to think about holding her hand as she gives birth, saying encouraging words and marveling at the wonderful baby, and future, that we've made with each other. I need to imagine her nervous, and me proud as our kid goes off to school for the first time, telling her not to cry when we drop him off because then I'll cry too. I have to think about catching her watching some cheesy soap opera, she's embarrassed and I sit down to watch it and make fun of it but we end up getting drawn into it and watching it together. To stay hard I have to think about still loving her at 60, taking the time to romance her, dance with her, loving the smell of the back of her neck as we hold each other to the sound of Dean Martin. To cum I have to think about grandkids visiting, warning her not to spoil them, her shooting back that's what grandparents are for. Sitting down after a weekend of babysitting and thinking that we did alright for ourselves.
I know it's a depraved fantasy, but it's what I need to get off.
