>>49422260My personal theory is one I didn't list but instead implied with the short exposition at the beginning.
If you've followed her for the majority of her five years, you'd know that almost nothing ever goes her way, yet all these years she's kept coming back. Time and time again.
It's 2022 and her entire channel shifts. She's writing paragraphs upon paragraphs as memposts detailing everything she has been doing to improve herself. She's beyond happy seeing all the progress she has been making, both in her personal life, her bond with coworkers, and connections with her fans. She's confident enough in herself, despite all the times her plans have failed before, to write and compose an entire song that frankly is nothing but a love letter to her fans.
An entire year of self improvement and social networking all falls apart in an instant. One sickness is all it took to throw her health out the window, destroy her grades, cancel all planned collabs (including the one with Momoshiki-sensei who was supposed to help her improve her drawing skills), ruin all the blood sweat and tears she poured into dance and singing lessons, and most hurtful of all, it ruined her chance to celebrate her third single together with her fans.
That was the one project she had finished. She was happy with the result. She had recorded the choreography and mixed the song together. The only thing left to do was be there when her song showed up live on stage. But like always, the pattern that had followed her all four years came back to fuck her one last time.
How the fuck do you think she feels knowing an entire year of self-improvement went to shit? How would you feel having all your hard work fucked over yet again? I honestly think she's done with it all. She's tired of constantly disappointing her family, disappointing her friends, disappointing her fans, and disappointing herself.
She may not be sick physically anymore, but she has finally reached her mental limit. She can't even face her fans anymore. She's pessimistic enough that she might unironically think everyone hates her for wasting their time and resources. I hope she hasn't killed herself yet and that her mom and sister are trying their best to help her recover, but she died February. What's left of her, no one knows
