>>5006722Same here and I also thought it wouldn't hit me this way.
I decided to throw all shame away and just try to enjoy her the fullest while she's there so that I have no regrets, then go back to normal.
I thought superchats were dumb. But during the last talking stream I just sent one in Japanese (more of a funny one), to not regret never having done it later. Her answer to it made me feel a lot better, since my message of support could reach her and make her laugh. I feel like such a pathetic loser just typing this, but who cares.
What still makes me tear up if the reactions of the other girls or even some of the fan projects. It's kind of touching to see how many people love her.
Part of me is also a bit disappointed in the girls though. They probably did their best for Japanese standards, but as someone who likes to say "sometimes you have to force someone to their luck", meaning, most of the time the person themselves doesn't know what the right action to find happiness is, and often they are misguided due to only having a limited point of view. You sometimes have to force them to do something that they might even think is a mistake initially, to help them get back on the right path. It comes a bit from my own experience, where something like this has turned my life completely around, so I'm a bit biased.
I still don't know if her move is really correct, but the status quo is also a huge waste of potential. Tbh I also don't want her to return back to being Kson. I want her to do something radical.
this ended up being quite a long post for 4chan, especially a shitty sub like /vt/
