>>52800480I feel weird for not wanting to fuck my oshi nor imagining anything sexual about my oshi. I also have the attention span of a gold fish and can't watch streams for more than 5 minutes at most before clicking off these days, but last year I was more than capable of watching 5+ hour streams everyday. I feel burned out and no joy from watching vtubers anymore - all the drama sucked any joy that I ever had for the hobby, at least in the EN branch. I'm keeping myself strictly to JP branches now but even then drama is inevitable and it still leaves a stain unable to be erased from what was once a wonderful, stainless hobby. Doxfags and dramafags, and also falling out of love with my oshi which I started to wonder if my oshi was ever my oshi in the first place, what qualifications I may have for such terms and how little value I place in such things. I would check the art tag everyday, I would save every image from the art tag as soon as it was made official. I was there for every joke, every inside joke, and every intimate moment, but as I drift further, I slowly forget these things and eventually view my oshi as a shell of someone I used to be in love with, but now cannot even begin to spare a lot of my time without boredom or uneasiness settling in. I don't know why I still visit this board, either. Maybe it's just to lurk for live posting in hopes of maybe experiencing the joy that I used to share in watching streams, live posting in generals. No longer seeing the ritualposts I used to see everyday makes me wonder where that ritualposter went - if they fell out of love with their oshi or this hobby like I did. If they gave up, or simply chose to not visit this board anymore.
