>be Miko
>in love with inkya girl in my High School
>befriend her as much as I can
>try to go out with her but she lives with her mom and is an autistic inkya with a bad attitude who never leaves the house
>recently started streaming
>I know, I'll share the idea of streaming with her
>friend starts streaming
>backfires a bit, friend gets obsessed with streaming
>do a few collabs together on our channels, but mostly still keeps to herself
>declines a bunch of IRL hangout invitations like going to comiket where I would've gotten to see her scantily clad cosplaying body
>half naked cosplays for her chat instead of you
>get into vtubing
>get scouted for a new vtubing organization
>help build it up to a semblance of popularity
>is an idol company, starts to gain traction and recruit more members
>1st gen, 2nd gen, and then even a GAMERS branch as the focus shifts off of idol stuff for a little
>make a lot of friends, but still horny for my HS friend
>she her still struggling on NND
>I know, I'll save her with this job, and then she'll be so grateful, she'll have sex with me
>offer her the job and set it all up so she gets into the 3rd generation
>my connection is so powerful that she is the first person in the company who actually gets to decide what her character looks like
>horny slut chooses an erotic as fuck skintight playboy bunny outfit where her vulva is visible
>it's all coming together
>she starts streaming and as expected is literal who tier for a while
>do everything I can to collab with her, insisting to management that the best way to sell this is to pander to yurifags
>basically write the scripts that have us hug and pretend to kiss and shit
>and then when they happen pretend to have no idea or pretend to not be into them
>gonna make this bunny gay
>months pass, and her channel keeps growing
>but our relationship still goes nowhere
>she's just spending more and more time streaming
>if anything, she's replying to my DM's less and less
>has a ton of other things to focus on now, and actively chooses them over me
>slowly, all of the PekoMiko collabs that happened initially slow down, until it's basically a drip feed of the content once every few months
>watch my friend start to lose her touch exterior and begin to become more and more dependent on her fans in a way I've never seen before
>talks about how excited she is to see them today even in our private conversations
>never heard her talk about "someone" this way
>it almost sounds like she's in love with her fanbase
>see her literally have an abandonment-fueled panic attack when she can't see the stream chat one time in a random AmogUs game
>this bitch is genuinely in love with her viewers, isn't she?
>realize I've cucked myself
>start to feel incredibly ill
>every day spent thinking about how I cucked myself through my own actions
>gets so bad physically that I have to go to a hospital for intensive therapy for my NTR-induced depression
>months spent without a single instance of contact from her end, but I work through my issues
>3 months later, I come back, having successfully convinced myself that she actually does love me after watching the clip of her saying she'll protect Hololive while I'm gone
>ready to break through to the bunny cunny
>relationship still as cold as it was, or even colder
>We collab once and she smacks me with a carrot, and then I convince corporate to force us to do a PekoMiko song together
>I worry that she hates me again
>no
>It's not true
>I know she loves me, she's just being shy
>I'll get through to her
>I know, the romantic scene every girl loves, a sleepover
>invite her to my house for a sleepover and hype it up publicly so she can't say no
>literally the first time because she's never been over before
>throws me a bone, says yes
>it's time
>get everything ready
>sleepover goes as planned, we chat just like we did in High School
>I go in for the kill
>wake her up gently and confess with all of my feelings
>and then wait for her reaction
>it hurts
>disgust plain on her face
>she's looking at me with a sense of disgust and betrayal I've never seen before in my life
>calls me a flaming carpet munching dyke queer
>hurriedly packs her shit up and gets out as quick as she can
>don't see her or contact her for months
>go about our shit separately
>one or two Discord DMs about Twitch or something are exchanged in a non-committal way
>more months pass
>force myself on her totsu collab because I still obsess over her every stream
>join just as that fucking blue-haired wench does
>damnit, no collab, but it's fun playing around with her again
>feels so distant still
>casually talk to her after collab
>get her alone
>try to reconcile
>she pauses for a few seconds, and then continues
>voice has a coldness to it that chills me to the soul
>'never interact with me on-stream again, you dyke'
>leaves discord call
>now she is literally ignoring any interactions with me, even in forced voice chats
Sasuga shrine maiden
