>>55590272>>55590983‘Cherish’ is a weird word, but…but I want you to cherish me! I want to be cherished! Don’t treat me the same as everyone else—just a little tiny bit special is all! Do you ever even think about me? We haven’t seen each other all summer, but…have you thought about me at least once? Because I’ve been thinking about you the whole time! Just you! Nothing but you! So I want you to…think about me, too… Not that we’re the same… I know I’m different…but I still keep hoping… I try to stop it, but…even when you…betray me like this…I still want to talk to you on the phone… But now look at how it’s turned out…and there’s nothing I can do… I don’t know what to do, Amelia. Amelia? The call’s still connected, right? We’re still connected? But you’re so far away, and I miss you. I want to see you in person, and see you smile… I want you to stroke my hair and tell me it’ll be okay… Where are you right now? Where? Are you with someone? Is it her? Who is she? I keep asking you—is it that big of a secret? Are you close with her? Closer than me and you? I don’t want that! I don’t want anyone to be closer than me! I don’t want that… Tell me I’m wrong! I need to hear it! Because I think about you all the time! Is that not enough? Not good enough? If you need more than this, then what do I have to do? I don’t know the answer! I keep thinking about it, but I only ever screw up, so just tell me what you want me to be and I’ll try my best, I promise. Truth is, I don’t really care about the other girl. The real problem is that I miss you and I need to make a change, Amelia. I get that, really… Hey, Amelia, what are you thinking right now? Am I being weird? Acting crazy? Tell me about you. Talk to me. Chase me. I’m the one who always has to do the work! Me, me, me! This is what happens when the friendship is a one-way street! I’m falling apart, so I just need you to meet me in the middle. Do you hate me now? You don’t hate me, do you? Please don’t hate me. I don’t want that. I don’t want you to hate me. I want—I want you to love me. Someone please love me…but I want it to be you… Do you hate me? Like my mom does? Are you going to stop talking to me now? Pretend I’m invisible? What do you want me to say? How do I get you to notice me? Grow wings and fly? Jump up and down? Hold your hand? Even if I tried, nothing ever seems to work…so what was I supposed to do all this time? How do I make it so nobody… Amelia, please, I want to hear your voice… Say something… Reassure me… I just don’t want you to smile at anyone else. Smile at me! ME! My head hurts…and my stomach hurts… I’ve been agonizing over this for so long—why didn’t you ever call me? Why didn’t you tell me? I want to know…I want to know about you… My feelings are all jumbled up now and I keep talking in circles, but I can’t help it. I mean, you’re all I think about, Amelia… You’re all I’ve ever cared about and you’re all I ever will care about. I cherish you… I want to cherish you. I can’t not cherish you…so please just notice that I exist, okay?! I need you to notice me, Amelia… I don’t want you thinking about other girls. I don’t want that… Are you going to hang out with her again? Where will you go with her? Downtown? To somewhere I’ve already been with you?! Don’t do that! Don’t replace me! Don’t replace our memories together! Will it be any different if you go with her? Will you see different things? No, no, NO! I don’t want that, either! You have to be with me, and we have to share the same things… Feel the same things… You’re acting so weird! No, I know. I’m the one being weird. But I can’t help it… I can’t get you out of my head… You’re always there, Amelia… Amelia… Shima…mura… Hhhnn…nnn…hic… Amelia… Amelia… Hhh…ghhck…nng… Amelia? I want… Amelia… Amelia… Amelia… All I want is you… That’s all I want…so please… I’m begging you, Amelia… Please, just… Amelia…”
