Teary eyes:
>when I woke up and did my singing reps, sang some sad songs to let out at least some part of emotion
>when Pekora literally couldn't sing the last song in her utawaku because of tears
>when I opened the stream and saw a fuckton of people waiting, the endless river of messages and supas of love and support, and realization that she's still graduating inevitably hit me
Then I cheered up and laughed a lot, because all the talking segments were fun and lighthearted. Then teary eyes again every time someone from yonkisei cried or when Coco wiped her eyes. Didn't expect Kanatan to cry this hard, man, that was painful.
>a bit of tears during SSS, poor Tower...
>started fucking ugly crying during Kiseki Musubi, literally was eating my lunch at the time and had tears in my soup, kek
Weather Hackers was kinda cheerful at first, their kneeling was funny. Then when they all left obviously crying, and Coco left too after the last chorus, and it faded to black all tears were gone and I just sat and stared. Okayu tweeted that she was doing the same, just sitting and staring in the void. It felt so fucking empty. Then Sui-chan's utawaku, no tears, just pure pain. I didn't feel the strength to watch Friend's zatsudan after that.
That being said, I went outside and touched grass, unwinded a bit, and it's honestly better now. I will do my best not to blame Cover, Yagoo, chinks etc, because Coco wouldn't want that. Instead of focusing on hate we should probably focus on doing our best in whatever we do. This month carried a simple message: give your all while you can, support your oshis while they're still around, do what you want to do so you won't have regrets later. Coco wasn't my favorite by any means but I will always respect her a lot for making literally the most possible out of this final month and going out with such a bang. Can't imagine what will happen when my oshi graduates but for now she's inspired to do her best every day so I'll try to do that too to the best of my ability.
Thanks for reading my blogpost, what the fuck, didn't expect to write this much
