>>61158903Eh, whatever. Work is slow today.
I don't want to fix or be fixed by Shiori. Our 'character arcs' came and went independently. I also wouldn't say that she is really my type, if that makes sense. Nevertheless, I find Shiori extremely relatable, probably the most relatable person I have ever seen. Sometimes I have to remind my paranoia that it's not a persona crafted to produce this effect on me in particular. I found it fascinating, and that's why I was watching her at first. But I guess you can't watch someone almost every day and not develop feelings. I don't even know if it can be described as romantic love, it's hard to tell with this parasocial stuff where adoration and admiration end and love begins.
What I do know is that I want to take the whole do it for her thing to its conclusion. I want her to be able to think "oh, this guy stuck around for a while and did this and that thanks to me" one day. Because that would make me happy in her place. And because that's the most recognition and love I can realistically expect.
Aaand that's where I sensually fellate a shotgun with a happy ending for everyone involved.
