I used to be so happy. But I've used so many different coping mechanisms to deal with the pain... it took me until advent debuts to finally see things the correct way, and that is, that I don't care about anyone but Gura. I took some time to reflect recently and now I realize things will never truly be the same again, after 2 fast years of the same shit, I got sick of it. I started doing drugs and constanly got drunk, I lost all interest in normal hobbies, stopped seeing my family and friends from work. I still love Gura but I can't keep going like this, I've always been a huge pessimist all my life and now that I finally realized that the past is the past and that things will never be the same again in the future... I'm killing myself. I'm ever so grateful for all the fun times I got to share with my oshi, but nothing helps anymore. My chest gets emptier by the day, and so I will say goodbye. Good luck, chumbuds. I hope that things turn out better for the rest of you. And to rest of my holo bros, hope ya'll are doing ok. Make your oshi proud
