>>67922328I can relate to you. Social anxiety was crippling to me and it's a momentous task to overcome it. However, working through/with social anxiety is much easier than it seems if you approach it right. Taking it step by step, balancing taking risks and putting yourself out there with respecting your limits and giving yourself comfort is key to broadening your limits to allow yourself to do more.
Also having friends you talk to day by day is far and away the most beneficial tool you can have in fighting social anxiety. I can't stress enough how helpful it is to have people who are always happy to see you and know that just by showing up you made their day a bit better. It will be eight years in February since I came out of my shell and made a general on another board with the intention of finding people to have fun with and maybe March or April when I worked up the courage to hang out with them outside of 4chan. Some of the people I met in that first thread are friends I still spend time with regularly today and I honestly don't know where I'd be with out them; and while I still have my social limits and barriers, I've been able to build friendships over the years with people who understand those limits, or even share them.
Expanding on what I said last night, at least four of my friends are small beginner female vtubers doing their best to stream despite their respective challenges, so I feel like you would relate to each other on that level. Again, none of them are into ryona, but one of them is an S (ironically a squeamish one) while another doesn't really like gore at all, but they know where I hang out on this site and if they accept me, they'll accept you.
Sorry for yet another wall of text, but if you ever want to be introduced to them, feel free to message me on the bird app. I should be in your message history since I was the one who suggested a rigger when you asked for one here one time.
