"Today was such a stressful day. A lot happened... I've only understood today that this is reality. I can't say anything specific, but I've lost an important friend. I've already lost two precious genmates, and now I lost a friend as well. I just feel so bad for them. Sometimes it feels like everyone involved with me in some way ends up meeting an unfortunate fate. That's why I felt a little down today and decided to just drink. To see the people who took care of me so much go through something like this... It's painful. I just want everyone to be happy. It's not like it's my fault or anything, and there's nothing I can do, but it still hurts. If this makes people angry, then that's fine. But something like this happened in the past too, and it made me remember some unpleasant memories. I'm usually a positive guy, but to be honest, that gave me a little mental breakdown. That's why I ended up drinking today. (...) I was asked what I'm thinking by a lot of people. I'll say this - I just feel bad for them. I can't talk about it deeply. It's not my business, but because this is about my friend, part of me can't forgive them. I just feel bad for them. I'm drunk right now, so if people flame me on twitter later for saying all this, then that's fine. But, as their friend, I will always prioritize my friend. I'm not looking for a fight with anyone, if anything I want things to end peacefully. But life isn't that easy, huh... I'm not in a position where I can stick my head into this. But I can say that I feel sorry for them. It's not about who did something wrong, I just feel so sorry for them... If I say anything else I might end up causing trouble, so please don't ask me anymore. (...) No matter what happens, I will always treasure my friends. Until the very end." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jc_aTazye9U Summary by /MANS/ anon