>>69063020I was ready to move on, I made my final statement, and for a whole week I didn't look at anything related to my past, I didn't look at any legal documents or anything related to my situation since I returned to Doki. I wanted to have hope for the future and I didn't want to be involved with that side anymore. But when it all came back to me like this, the wounds that had finally begun to heal were reopened, and I had to talk to my lawyer again about how to handle the situation.
The example document was initially created to record my thoughts and history, along with evidence, so that my attorney could get a full picture of what was going on and what issues needed to be addressed. I created it at a time when I was at my most mentally depressed, and I wrote down every little detail that was in my head at the time. It was created with the intention of never disclosing it to anyone but my attorney. The document was filled with information that should not have been made public, such as my personal information and information about my privacy, but there is no mention of other people's addresses or specific locations. As for the recording, it was only a delivery test for a collaborative event we both planned, and it happened to be left as a test recording, and I never recorded a conversation with anyone else. The recordings have never been released anywhere else, including in legal negotiations, and there are no other recordings. However, we regret that this situation has been brought to our attention, and we apologize to all parties involved for any misunderstanding that may have been caused by this matter.
I just wanted to move on. I had not heard anything from the other side's lawyer for days, and I felt alone and isolated for a long time. It was very difficult mentally, and on February 5, my attorney discussed the matter with me and advised me that I should show the document I had written to the other side's attorney, as I had not heard anything from the other side's attorney in the week since I had offered to quit, nor had I been given any opportunity to discuss the matter, let alone negotiate. I did not expect the document to be used for anything else, and I told my attorney that, and also told him that the document would not be released as written, and my attorney told him as much when he sent the document to the other party. However, less than two hours after my attorney sent the document, my report of the termination was made public. I was very shocked, but I knew that this was the last time I would ever hear or think about this document, and I personally thought that this was the end of my involvement with my lawyer and legal matters.
All communication between lawyers took place in Japanese. Things are not black and white, and when lawyers are involved in different countries, everything becomes more complicated and muddled. When things are communicated to multiple parties, from different angles, everything becomes a different story, a different translation. On my part, I thought it was over and I am ready to accept what has happened and move on. Everything I disclose to you about the situation has been in response to the other party, and a month ago, I would have responded differently because there was a lot of anger in my head and a strong sense of isolation. But it's not a month ago anymore, and I accept it. I wanted to remain neutral and private, but now we are in a situation where the whole world is involved and every single thing is getting everyone's attention.
I am not perfect and I have made mistakes. Last night, for the first time in my life, I witnessed my father break down in tears in front of me. A lot has happened, but please show some kindness to all involved. One of the reasons I did not want to make the whole series of events public is because the internet is a cruel place and I knew this would happen the moment these notices were dropped. I never revealed this to anyone except my parents and my therapist, but the truth is that I made the decision to take my life not once, but twice, and the second time was a few weeks after the first. My parents searched for me for hours before it happened and found me in the nick of time. I was truly in the dark at the time and I don't want anyone else to have to go through what I went through. No one should have to go through what I went through. I reveal this not to garner sympathy, but to communicate that no life should be risked for the sake of ego or to win something. There are no winners in this matter. Please stop acting like children. Please treat everyone as adults, with empathy and kindness.
