>>70553354 Me again, my comment was too long.
This is what I *assume* happened.
Selen is a high achiever and hard worker. She genuinely loved her job streaming and loved her fans/audience. She put everyhting into this job as it's what gave her happiness. All her efforts pay off and she grows popular and loved very quickly. Except, this is her first time working at a Japanese company. Japanese companies are usually incredibly stringent with rules. As someone who used to handle all her own projects independently for years, she was not used to having to go through so many people to get permission for things and waiting for the said permissions. Bear in mind that the management for EN is already spotty and inconsistent, leading to more irritation from Selen, which made her revert to doing things her own way and not respecting management. Again, while a Western company would love this kind of independence and proactiveness, Japanese companies hate it and want you to follow their structure. But how can structure be followed when the structure is inefficient and flawed?
This lead to some of Selen's projects being delayed or cancelled (as she didn't go through avenues of management. Example would be the FG tournament). She was very visibly upset about this and made remarks on her streams and Twitter about it, which lead to her getting reprimanded due to all the backlash thrown at Niji. This made her feel more resentful, especially because Luxiem also made remarks regarding the cancellation fo the AR live, but seemingly got away with punishment due to favouritsm. This is most likely what lead Selen to secretly record Vox to prove that there was favouritism in Niji.
So by this time, Niji's rep is low because the livers themselves (not only Selen) have thrown remarks against Niji. We as fans couldn't see the reason WHY things were delayed or cancelled, so of course we naturally side with our favourite streamer.
But how do the others feel? The ones who silently accepted the rules and inefficient management? Nobody feels happy to see their own company being trashed. I think the girls had a talk with everyone (including the Luxiem boys) about this, because we visibly saw a stop to all the cryptic comments against management. I believe Selen must have interpreted this as harrassment because she didn't believe it was wrong to put the company under fire. Even though it was compromising the reputation of their workplace, she believed it was necessary, but the others didn't agree. I feel the girls relationships towards Selen became colder after this, but still on professionally friendly terms. Just no close friendships due to not meeting eye-to-eye. The boys may have been more on Selen's side so they maintained their firendships.
Then came her comment about her privated video. She clearly broke rules by telling them to reupload, but aslo the implication that it was privated for no reason by management put Niji under fire again. The other livers knew there WAS a reason for the video being privated and all asked Selen why she made that kind of tweet, making their company look bad again. She was already very depressed and in a bad headspace during this time, so all those messages must have felt like an attack on her since her emotions were very high. She worked so hard on that video and spent a lot of money so she must have been upset that nobody was taking her side.
Selen was loved by so many people, including me, for a reason. She was really passionate and invested in what she did and it captivated us. But that passion can also turn into impatience, emotional reactions and aggression. We saw these sides to her in her streams too. I'm not going to pretend that side of her didn't exist. I won't lie, I didn't particularly enjoy seeing those (very human) sides of her, but I did tune out during those moments, since I wanted entertainment, not to feel bad. We know she had the habit of saying things out of anger. Even implying she was banned from ever doing tournaments again - it wasn't true. Same with her video; in her discord leak, she said "it will never be unprivated." but immediately contradicts herself by saying "or if it is, it won't be the same". I do think if she had waited for her manager to get permissions to use graduated livers, they would have approved the video. There was no reason not to.
It's why I can believe that she interpreted everyone's messages and interjections as harrassment, because she truly did believe she wasn't in the wrong and she was shocked that others didn't take her side, even though most experienced the same experiences as her.
But I can also understand the POV of the other livers who want to do their job without their company's rep being under fire, subsequently affecting their own earnings and workplace happiness too.
