>>70893201oh I know why, boobros won't shut up about it. "She told us to love her! She whispered sweet nothings in our ear then threw us away like trash for her boyfriend!" I simply never look behind the curtain myself, I don't care about forbidden knowledge and never seek it. Because the fact is, 95% of chuubas are married or have a boyfriend, despite what they say. And all asmr/cutesy member posts are just to milk cash, none of them "care" about the faceless mob throwing money at them beyond that fact: they are just an aggregate entity feeding them cash that they feel grateful toward and rely on. Like a queen bed and her thousands of drones. No more no less.
TKDR: I know I don't personally matter to my oshi, if I delude myself into thinking I do that path only ever leads to heartbreak and sadness.
