>>73368735Jump King is the first time she really felt confident and happy streaming a game, all of the other stuff regularly made her feel insecure and lost, with chat very actively backseating or calling her out in her worst moments
then she beat NB+ and even a lot of JPs started referencing her as someone skilled/notable for that game
here comes GoTB, it's punishing to the extreme and requires so much focus that her favorite way to de-stress during (being in VC with one of the other members) was actively working against her
at the same time she got the invitation to a label, which was a major source of stress she couldn't spill anything about + was trying to squeeze out at least one independent album beforehand + working on some rm side stuff for friends/as a way to vent out her frustrations and worries
ended up with most streams of the game having her extremely tense, at which point she got hit by the start of the cuck comic/lean stuff, first by a faggot in members stream and then troll supas while playing this super stressful game while working on super stressful projects and her mental just fucking died completely
not only did she lose the one thing she was confident streaming, she lost her confidence in how she presented herself as a Holo and took very long time working on recovering from that
this was almost like a final step of actual therapy
