>>7582124137, soon to be 38. A weeb who got interested during the Kizuna AI and Kaguya Luna's run, reentered the scene when Myth came around. Currently mostly watching Phase, but I grow more and more apprehensive. Male collabs are my only true filter and for whatever reason every chuuba I get interested in tends to end up collabing with males. Was membered to Pippa for two years, which is the longest consecutive time I've ever paid attention to a woman. I dropped Gura at the 1 year and 11 months mark because it became perfectly clear she wasn't going to stream properly ever again. She was my true kamioshi and nobody ever came close to her in terms of quality and skill.
Personally I'm doing fine. I'm not lonely or looking for GFE as such, I just like CGDCT with a dash of energy. I mostly watch Panko, Uruka, Lumi and Remilia (all Phase) and got into Coni from Idol. I'm not very optimistic about vtubing as a whole anymore since it all seems to tend towards maleshit. Pippa destroyed any sort of notion I had that a chuuba can change or strive for the best. I genuinely thought she was capable of rising to true greatness and status Gura achieved. Following my disappointment I grew much more cynical and pessimistic, and thus kinda detached.
As stated above my IRL life is in order, I have a job I can tolerate, I own my place outright, no debts, no mortgages, no credit and I can't really complain about anything. As I grow older and older I can feel myself abandoning many things, but acquiring some new ones. I don't think or feel that the addition of a woman into my life could offer any sort of benefit nor am I actively pursuing anyone. As stated above loneliness or depression or sadness simply aren't a thing for me. I actually think those feelings just die out after you hit 30 and I see younger guys who complain about inceldom or no gf as just being immature. It really is something you grow out of.
