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i have a little confession about amelia watson, she's different from the other hololive members, different from other vtubers, she's not even my oshi but i tune in sometimes to her streams, and sometimes i watch clips of her karaoke nights, i'm not sure, no, stratch that, i have no idea why but thinking about ame always makes me so emotional, my heart trembles as i'm writing this, what is it about ame that makes her so ephemeral? every moment with her seems like one of those moments that mean nothing to you now but in years time when she's gone and this is all you have left of her they will be like little diamonds among the sand grains, every time ame talks about her life i tear up a little, i don't know why, i think it's that these little moments like her finding out the cats broke the glass panel from the pc case, or her sitting on her bean bag watching spierman alone, these little bits... what's so valuable about them to me? they make her more, human, i presume, but i get little slices of life like that all the time from my friends and family, but she feels so special in my heart... is kt because i love her? no, i don't think that's it, i don't want to be amelia's boyfriend and have sex with her, no, it's something else, i don't want to have ame for myself, maybe i just want to be ame? but that's not it either... everything would feel so mundane and i'd get used to it quickly, but the way ame is now for me... i don't know how to say this but i think it's perfect, i always want more of her, and not in a sexual way, i just want more of this amazing prefect preson called amelia watson, i want more of her streams, her singing, her funny quips, her tweets, beautiful moments with her... i want to live through all these things because every moment i spend with ame feels like the best thing that's happened to me ever, i want to collect as many lf these moments before they eventually end... like all beautiful things in life... ame, i... i wouldn't say i love you but ame, you mean the sky and stars to me