>>9117354Me too, anon. It's not the same just watching vods, there was a certain feeling along with watching the streams live that you can't get from recordings.
>>9119001The fact is not on my mind constantly anymore, but occasionally it suddenly hits me like "Oh right, she's gone now...". It's not a sharp and strong pain like it used to be anymore, but more of a dull ache that will never go away completely. The reason for her graduation is probably a big reason why that is, if it had been anything positive I don't think it would hurt like this. I don't click away if I see any pics or lewds of her, but I've definitely stopped looking for them, it just doesn't feel the same anymore. I watched the entire graduation stream live, and the wistfulness of it was palpable. Just watched a few minutes of one of her Yakuza 0 streams after a long while of not watching any of her content, and I couldn't help but smile, but it hurt a lot too.
>i was listening to her sobakasu cover on SpotifyThanks, I didn't even know it was on Spotify until now.
>Since then im coping the pain away with nijienLulu's graduation pretty much completely shattered the illusion and appeal of vtubers for me, I barely watch any vtuber nowadays and I unsubscribed from most of them that I had subbed before. It just doesn't feel the same anymore, something about the whole concept is off now.
