>>2260152I get not wanting to share your problems, I recently broke down and told my mom about me being in a then 6 month long deep depression with constant SI and that I had started cutting.
And I regret doing that because now I can't hide it without her noticing, so I have to wait for the thoughts to pass or eat my feelings again, which makes me feel even worse after since I've stressed so much about losing weight and I don't want to give up on that.
Even though I've lost 65+lbs so far and graduated still I don't feel any better.
The few family members that know still can't do anything about it so I also feel like a burden on them now, even when they say I'm not.
I still feel nearly as bad as I did then but I keep nearly all of it to myself, with slip ups not being able to keep up appearances that I'm fine.
They say it gets better but I can't imagine a future where it does. I hope it's really possible though, even for people like us.
