>>1952029Life can suck, it does pretty often, but life is never really all that simple. After living with pretty severe MDD for nearly ten years, one thing I learned is that a lot of how we perceive our life is so subjective and arbitrary, that letting it get you down and fully buying into the 'everything sucks' bullshit, is just that, bullshit. We tend to only see narrow slices of our existence and ourselves at a time, and often in a distorted ways, as we're limited and human. I get suicidal, and buy into the bullshit myself, but in the back of my head I keep in mind, that regardless of how overwhelming it may be, it's still just a tiny slice of life that's just too easy to fixate on, especially if how you grew up or the shit you've had to deal with kept putting you back there again and again till it just becomes way too ingrained in your head. I guess all I'm saying is life is what you make it, as there's so much more of it than we think, enough to shape it into something better. It's not easy to make it better, but it sure as hell is possible.
If you have any bit of desire to do anything, find a good game, show, or movie, or something else, find something that takes you out of that slice of life and makes it easier to work it out or just wait it out, whatever works for you. There's sometimes worthwhile experiences where you'd least expect them.
You can also kill yourself, if you really want to. You have every right to your life, but also the consequences that come with taking it. I would advise voluntary dehydration as it would take about a week, and require you to reaffirm that this is actually the best decision for you for that entire week, and wouldn't lead you to making an irrational decision based on a couple of really bad days. I still think you have some life left in you, even if it's just for a couple of sweet wallpapers.
You'll be alright. All bad things tend to work themselves out by the end, just don't cut things short before you see it through.
