>>2260155First, congrats on your weight loss ^-^
>The few family members that know still can't do anything about it so I also feel like a burden on them now, even when they say I'm not.That's one of the worst things about this, isn't it. Sometimes, in some settings, I can just feel myself bringing my partner's mood down. If they know it's a situation that probably makes me uncomfortable, they worry about me and how I feel about it, even if I show no signs. It makes me feel so bad.
Last night, my partner told me my existence is necessary to them, and that they're happy I do. It came out of nowhere, especially since I was actually feeling pretty neutral. It felt good in the moment to hear that, but later it made me realize how much I weigh on their mind, how much they worry about me. And I don't know what the right answer is. If I had never told them, we'd both be living a lie. Now that I did, I'm a constant killjoy. It's a lose-lose, no matter how I look at it, and I don't know how to help it.
Hopefully it will get better, I will get better. Seeing how the problems start with me, it's really I who needs to do better, to fix this, but I don't know how.
