>>7076031I have developed tinnitus in my left ear half year ago. Turns out I have a genetic disease of my ears. The stapes bone of my ossicular chain tends to harden up and stop functioning. Luckily it can be operated so I won't loose my hearing. At least not for a couple of decades. But the surgery doesn't help the tinnitus. Sometimes it gets worse, other times it's better. I can't really do anything about it. I am completely defenceless against it. The worst are the nights, when I am trying to fall asleep in the silence. Its there and it never stops. It can be however bad it wants to and theres nowhere to run from it. I am afraid of what if I develop it in the other ear and what if they get worse. It might drive me crazy and end up in the mad people's house.
I asked many doctors, they all say it won't go away and theres nothing I could do about it. There are some meds and alternative treatment that MIGHT make it better. I have tried some of those and nothing. I am just not used to this kind of permanence in life. We were told that if we don't like a certain thing in life, we do something about it. If you don't like a person, you stop seeing him. If you don't like a movie you stop watching it. If you don't like a a food you avoid it. If you don't like a place, you don't go there. This I do not like and theres nothing effective I could do about it. No matter where I go or what I do. And the worst is people don't understand this at all.
I'm 24 now