>>6560916Hello /wg/, I hope everyone's day/night is good and not too being rough to you anons.
I came to see this thread earlier in the day, and tonight I come to add a little story to it.
An anon on this thread said "Never stay in a relationship that doesn't make you happy, just because its comfortable.".
I have been in a relationship with my best friend for a year and a half. I've known him for around 6 years, and have been in love with him since I was something like 11 or 13. We give each other support, comfort, a shoulder to cry on and a face to talk to ; we both struggle with being suicidal, I have severe anxiety, social phobia, PTSD, have been hospitalized twice in psychiatric services for my own safety and had to drop out of school, amongst other things. I'll not talk about his issues to respect his privacy. I saved his life once.
He's a great guy really, very sweet and comforting, he has helped me through everything, made me feel beautiful when I was simply disgusted with myself.
I did and do everything I can to return the favor, but it has been months now that I just can't feel a thing. I have been in love with him for so long, until recently. Arguments, hurting, deep issues, we both tried and try to fix it as much as one can try to. I'm a very bitter person ; I never quite manage to forgive people ( it goes back to childhood where I still haven't forgiven people for the stupidest things ), and it just has added up and added up and added up until I could feel only bitterness. I tried to keep the relationship up because it is everything I know, this guy is part of my roots. But I wasn't happy anymore. I just wasn't. I don't blame him, I don't like making this choice, but I just wasn't happy anymore, I was just staying in a relationship because it felt comfortable through all the pain. Because I'm scared to be alone, that he'll leave, that there'll be nothing without this relationship, that there'll be no one.
But tonight, /wg/ I broke up.
