>>6619024I got pretty close to killing myself once. When your brain finally clicks that you're going to die you get a massive rush of adrenaline and endorphins and all of a sudden you want to live again. Luckily I was too much of a pussy and managed to save myself. 6 years later I still think about suicide often but never with any real wish to do so, probably just because I obsessed over it for so long. I'm kinda happy now.
Go outside and do exercise. Get sunlight. Get a pet doggo. Force yourself to join a casual sports team. Think about something that would be cool to learn and learn it.
I play casual badminton once a week, I suck at it but so does everyone else who plays. I torrented Ableton Live and started making beats. I'll never be very good but its neat to muck around with and sometimes people like my tracks on soundcloud. Maybe if you're on /wg/ you could save up for an okay camera and start taking photos to post here as wallpapers. I've never done it but it could be fun, plus it'll get you outside.
Save up like $20,000 and move to an Asian country like Thailand or Indonesia. If you're not silly with money you can live off nothing over there. Use Tinder to meet someone or just go talk to people, they're pretty nice over there. If you can't talk to any locals then there's places that expats usually hang out together.
Heaps of shit you could do to turn your life around. Suicide is so difficult and if you fail everyone's gonna be a real cunt about it, calling you selfish etc. It should always be a last resort.
Might as well try do something else before you end it all.
