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I'm stuck in this feeling of neverending stagnation. Like my life can't move forward no matter how hard I push myself to and make a change, it feels like I'm always thwarted by something. I started college, I passed my classes this last semester, I started getting healthy and working out again and actually lost 20lbs. I even quit nicotine for a good few months with an occasional relapse.
But it didn't matter enough to me, I still feel disgusting, I still feel fucking stupid as ever, and I got laid off at my bar job a couple of days ago, just after I finally got good at it.
Not to mention, I'm stuck in one of the states that's had a massive resurgence in Kung-Flu cases, so I might get fucked in that regard as well.
Life just feels fucked rn.
