>>7838651I'm failing my uni year, once again, after having changed of studies. Time's running out, money's running out, i can't really afford to just give this year up. But at the same time those studies lead me to nowhere.
Been dealing with depression since the end of highschool, drinking daily and smoking a lot. My ability to maintain conversations is going down, i just can't find funny or interesting things to say anymore.
Im getting tired. Very tired. I spent a few evenings with my loaded gun pointed to my head, wondering if ill push that damn trigger to end it all. Asking myself if things will get better. But no, they won't. They just fucking won't.